why does this to me
Maybe deep down this is my own dose of my medicine i have always been known as a heart breaker
but that the tables have been turned
i just cant seem to take it
its so overwhelming
i cant breathe sometimes
sometimes i cant move my body
lately i have been hurting
my pain is in my heart
there’s nothing to cure it
and i know it……
Understand the emotion of jealousy. A combination of fear and anger, jealousy is fed by the fear of losing someone (or a cherished situation/state of affairs) and anger that someone else is “moving in” on the person or situation that is of value to you personally. It’s a destructive and ignoble emotion and nothing good can come of it, so recognition of its occurrence is your number one self-defense.
i mean i hate to admit it but im really feeling like this…….
I don’t know whats gotten into me
but i do know that he’s mine
I may not be around him all time
but he is & will be on my mind
I use to wish that we could have been together
but the reality is the that we aren’t ready
so i find myself asking question like
is its possible that Im turning into Ike
i know that he is not my man
but he’s not someone that i dont want to let go of right now
it really does hurts
so much
i cry until Im dry
Im so sad that is bad
I love you
but you’re not ready
and its hard for me to think about him with someone else
what causes us to have dreams….
dreams that are so terrible
that seems too real that it comes true….
INSECURITY is not one of those thing you cant just cure
and once you reach that stage it is hard to recover from it….
i was told not to think so heavily on your dreams
the most difficult thing in my life is balancing between the two……..
LOVE & XBOX LIVE
i know which one is important but at times i just want to escape reality by playing my games because usually i use alcohol to do this but sense i cant by it for myself i hae to play my game ….
Sometimes I wish I could be the most incredible person in the world but I realize that I am only one little quiet person…….
My dream House #WishList
When you find someone that you like
Everything seems to be cool
But as things go on you start to think
but of course its not bad but
when you can’t your way
everything changes …..
throughout my life all I have ever wanted was to be proud of myself but so far I have been continuing to disappoint myself….my dreams are almost shattered and I only have two options…. 1) KEEP GOING STRONG or 2) GIVE UP ……we all know that option two is out the proportion and that means I have to keep going…..
why is it so hard to make a decision
i hate this feeling
i know what i want but
i just dont want to hurt the wrong person
life is hard
Sometimes I’m happy
Sometimes I’m sad.
I feel bad for the way I treated you.
Believe me, it was for own good.
You know, I wads just thinking
about what I told you when you were down.
I remember saying,” Everything that gliters ain’t gold.”
It seems like it was yesterday
When I told you I wasnt perfect
& how I said that I love you
Then when you cheated on me
by sleeping with that girl
I just couldn’t understand it.
All i ever wanted was to be happy
I was truly in love with you
And you treated me like shit.
You didn’t even give a damn about me anymore
But now you call me & tell me that you want to:
hold me
kiss me
touch me
and even make love to me
I regret saying this but….
I miss the way you would hold me at night
I miss the feeling of you getting hard when you touch me
I even miss the way I would feel like losing my virginity to you
I miss everything about you
but I’m not going back
because I’ve moved on
You may be the first boy I fell in love with
but you will not make a fool out of me
I’m so glad I finally got this off my chest!!
1/14/08
